| Wednesday, December 20 |
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clearing backlog is such a chore. with her around is worse coz i couldn't even clear my stuffs with her handing more n more stuffs for me to do daily. i am so glad she's not around yesterday. coz i cleared 1 pile of backlog. 1 more pile to go before everything i have is up to date. colleagues are leaving one by one. and we're again left with 3 to fight the battle. sometimes i wonder is it her or is it just the heavy work load. i believe its the person. work is certainly cope-able n learn-able but unhealthy work relatinoship will make a person lose the enthusiasm or lose the interest to work. am i right? she wants to talk to me tmr coz i sort of mentioned to another colleague of mine my happiness n hesitant to go interview for the next position. n this colleague happily went to tell her abt what i said. duh.. if i want to talk it out with her, i would have done it myself. i dont want to mention it for a reason. i trust it to the Lord to work things out for me. n i believe he will do it coz many times when i feel irritated by her actions or what nots i prayed n things got better. maybe i should keep it to myself in future. anyway they are thinking of promoting me that is why i need to go for the interview with the director. coz the director felt i am too young for the job, afraid that i cant handle the stress from the work load n im very new to the industry. i have the confidence in myself. the only thing i do not have is the confidence in her. probably when im promoted, i wont have so much contact with her coz i will not be directly under her. working world is so disgusting. when u are nice, ppl take advantage. i hate it! n to a certain extend i try not to be nice to them anymore. so what im the most junior staff? like i said, it doesnt pays to be nice. esp to colleagues. blah... so much grieve n unhappiness. im still a happy girl.. coz i love my family. coz my family loves me.. coz i love my baby. coz my baby loves me.. coz i love my friends. coz my friends love me.. coz i love mahjong n my friends played with me. coz i love shopping n baby went shopping with me. coz i love eating n everybody eats with me.. haha... going out for dinner with the family soon.. shall bring them to somewhere nice.. crabs here i come! anyway the boy is out of town n will be back tmr.. cant wait! i havent buy his present yet.. i havent buy anybody's present yet.. im so screwed.. i wanna go shopping but nobody is free.. boring... waiting for time to pass.. shall play some game now.. ciao! *shall upload some pics soon* Love sees with the heart and not with the mind. Therefore, winged cupid is painted blind. |
