| Friday, September 23 |
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my bro is back!!! with huge muscles n becoming more n more hunky!!! hhahaha! im kidding.. he is tanned n fit.. becoming more n more like dream guy material.. but lousy him over stressed his muscles.. cant even do a single push up now.. was laughing my head off when he told me that.. but seriously the training indeed toned up his muscles alot.. *scary* anyway was out with lesbian partner yesterday n had fun.. guilty that i skipped BS.. but hmm.. long story too. blah! tried many pairs of levis jeans.. did wanna buy them.. but cant escape the fact that it will be on 25% sales soon.. in the end.. i sticked to my principle.. not buying any levis jeans... chatted with shuz for like 1-2hours today? cant remember.. initial intension was to check if she's applying for aussie uni n to inform of the dates... but ended talking abt so many other stuffs still some parts.. it hit the bull's eye.. what's really wrong, how will the outcome be, etc etc.. going out laters... wanna enjoy n stop thinking about the unnecessary stuffs that will make me sad... but i have work at 8am.. blah! so long as i am happy.. i dun really care. happy happy happy.. that was what i used to be... i want to go back to the past!!! |
| Tuesday, September 20 |
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thanx for the hug girl.. much appreciated.. my lesbian partner is back... i wish i can see her asap! so much so that i feel like taking mc tomorrow... but nope.. coz i still have to go for tuition at 8pm.. seriously dun feel like teaching him.. how do i tell him i dun wish to tutor anymore? i wish i am more hard hearted... got aaron to tell me how did perry pass away so suddenly.. the process from playing soccer... its really shocking.. i cried many times while he was telling me all that happened.. went to friendster to find out one of his friend wrote something even more touching.. cried again.. i thot back... why i didnt feel as strongly when ivan passed away? was it because i was a happier person back then? i really dunno what's happening to me.. will i be better if i am to lead my life alone? why have i become so pessimistic? shall sleep n think less... nites.. will u give me a hug to tell me u care? |
| Monday, September 19 |
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too many things happened recently... logged on to msn to find out a girlfriend's bf had passed away.. dumb founded by the fact.. though not close, but he was once a joker.. another happy go lucky guy who really cares for his gf.. whom i know had made her a happy girl.. it hurts me to know she has to go thru this torture n suffering.. i wonder how is she now.. as for this week.. worked my arse off n finally had a great night with the old clique on fri evening.. simply loved every single second together.. even if its just supper.. even if its just slacking ard in the tv room watching my da chang jin while others suffered while waiting for the show to finish. haha! =P even if wx cant plan the time properly.. i still love my clique! haha.. btw i end work at 9pm.. meeting 1030 in the west is like asking me to OT till 10pm.. but sadly there is no such choice.. anyway have been pondering about this... what will you do when u accidentally sent a msg to a wrong person.. its so wrong that you would rather kill yourself or hide from the person till the next century? sat was probably the worse day of my life.. probably lack of sleep.. probably brain not functioning well... when i decided to be nice to him despite being pissed n irritated.. i hurt myself.. n probably hurt someone else.. hmmm... how stupid can i be? i even chose to laugh it off.. ~!@#$% i went on to be hurt even more.. by the harsh treatment n words... utterly speechless, totally broken.. looking towards freedom.. i need my lesbian partner... i long for someone who cares... but no one is near.. i need a hug... |
| Sunday, September 11 |
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havent been blogging! (seems like i always start with this sentence. LOL!) anyway its off day again!! yeah.. slacked around.. had mac breakfast.. filled up UQ application form (halfway done).. went grocery shopping.. bought briefs for my bro.. almost wanted to buy mooncake.. yup.. these are the things i've done today... i've been pondering for very long.. should i or should i not go overseas to study.. have been procrastinating since the last semester in NP.. part of me feels very enthu.. the other half is hesistant.. another serious note will be the large amt of $ involves.. will definitely need laptop if i wanna go over.. haiz... anyway i'll start saving.. no matter for what reason, i'll try to work as hard and save as much.. just take it as saving for the rainy days... anyway on a lighter note.. i finally went to open an UOB account! that means i will get my mini debit VERY SOON!!!! lalalalala... but doubt will be using that acc much, coz i wanna use that as savings acc.. the interest is definitely higher than lousy POSB n its on a month basis.. yup.. and i miss my lesbian partner!!! i wanna some reassurance.. some advice.. some suggestion.. blah! life's a bleak! |
| Thursday, September 1 |
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off day!!! cool! went for awards n appreciation dinner yesterday.. got 2 half colours award from the sch.. initially we all thot its just another cert but no baby got a throphy n i got 2! cheapo ones though. hahaha! chatted with andrew for quite abit yesterday.. and his first sentence to me was 'now i know why you seldom come for training' year 3 is really busy.. datelines aft datelines.. glad to have someone who understands, but its not important anymore coz i've GRADUATED. lala! as we chatted, i got to realise that biotech industry is getting more n more saturated.. one of his friend who graduated with 2nd upper couldnt find a job.. im now hesistant to further in this area.. should i? should i not? tough decision.. on a lighter note, my aunt is back in sg!!! i'm gonna meet her later at 1pm for lunch n some shopping together! for those who doesnt know.. she's my favourite aunt n she's not in sg most of the time.. past 1 year or so she was in shanghai being a tai tai while my uncle worked his arse off! haha.. gonna buy sandals, prob another shoe or something to reward myself for working so hard.. hahah! till then, GOD bless! |
