| Sunday, March 26 |
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i am beginning a new life at a new work place soon... you guessed it right, last friday was my last day at starhub. after a long 10+ mths there. i've made hell lotsa friends n had lotsa fun n sorrows with them. i had mixed feelings when i was about to leave that place.. took lotsa pictures with everybody, gave out chocolates to everyone that i can think of, and wrote a long long list of farewell msg n posted to everyone in the customer service dept. i left with a heavy heart, i pretended i was happy n smiled all the way. but deep down, i was super sad.. only selected few saw my tears.. i teared as i wrote the farewell message, i teared when gracia came over with yet another gift from terasa, i teared when gracia told me some of the things that terasa wanted to tell me but couldnt do so face to face coz she knows we both will cry. i teared when i read the farewell card my team wrote to me.. i hated to leave the place. so much so that i hated to leave, i had to, for my own good.. and so i logged off for one last time n left the office for the last time.. fri was actually much better than thurs.. coz on thurs, she bought another 10books from home n forced me to bring home, together with 3 packets of ginger tea n a note that she stuffed into the plastic bag which i didnt notice until i was at the busstop. thurs was my half day, so when my day ended, i went over to her place n chatted awhile with her, i sat there on a stool beside her one last time, i took a looked at her thru the mirror reflection one last time, i teased her one last time, i took picture with her in the office once more.. n i left quickly.. so that she wont see my tears.. i teared the moment i stepped out of the office. she is such a bug.. a tear bug.. making me tear every now n then.. i cried my way home.. lilac was made to tears by me too.. (another great friend i had.) im sorry lilac. and so i unpack n rested awhile n went out to meet the boy. went with the boy to develop photos.. and bought a book..went for BS n quickly went home to write on the booklet. i couldnt think of what i should write.. but then the ideas just flow as i recall what made us the way we are today. thursday, 23/3/2006 .. was my most sorrowful day of the year so far. i was so sad, i totally forgotten about my friend's bday. i am such a bad friend. anyway friday was so much better. maybe coz without her presence, i was able to control my emotions more.. and sat.. was qiulin's surprise party.. took many pictures n videos of her. will update soon. need to rest now.. insurance exam is on tues n thurs.. pray for me.. ciao! Love sees with the heart and not with the mind. Therefore, winged cupid is painted blind. |
| Thursday, March 16 |
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had a 3 days rest n went back to work today.. wanted to get something before going to work but didnt have time to do so.. anyway went back to office n saw a plastic bag on my table.. it just came second naturally that she have something for me.. true enough.. i have 3 new books to read on being a better salesperson n related stuff.. =) she brought the books from home n wants me to read n improve.. n towards the end of the day.. she came over n stuff it into my bag.. n i shall read them soon!! i have lotsa books to read suddenly. haha.. rushed to fish & co. @ glasshouse after work to celebrate lynn's birthday.. missed out one the 21 chocolates part.. haha.. but glad she loves the gucci envy me perfume.. shes my lovely friend who truly believes the perfume she wants had sold out n that we REALLY bought her 21 roches.. babe.. we are not that evil.. =) took a few pictures.. will upload soon.. till then.. God Bless! Love sees with the heart and not with the mind. Therefore, winged cupid is painted blind. |
| Friday, March 10 |
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i thot i should sit down n do some updates n probably dedicate this post to HER.. it has never been easy to me when it comes to parting.. and the thing about today was.. i finally decided that i shouldnt be wishy-washy n do it once n for all.. and yes.. i tendered my resignation letter.. with a HEAVY heart. discussed about it with the boy yesterday n he supported my decision.. and when you have support, u feel that nothing's more important than having a backing and go all the way to take another step towards the opened door. and you will be happy in the new environment.. but i was wrong.. i wasnt myself the whole of today. though i know i have an open door waiting.. my emotional self tells me there's someone here that i do not want to leave behind.. for the whole day, i fought myself to break the news to her.. i boosted my courage then backed out.. i took the WHOLE day to type a letter with less than 100 words.. when the day was about to come to an end.. i printed the letter, took an envelop n finally walked to her table with a HEAVY heart.. i let the cat out of the bag.. she saw the envelope thru the mirror reflection even before i was able to speak to her abt it.. we talked.. she shared with me her feelings, her experience n her thoughts.. i can feel it saddens her when she saw the letter i was holding on to.. i know she's lost at words too and yet she comforted me with jokes n sweets coz stupid me teared.. as the talk goes.. i teared more n more.. even if she never say a single word.. we both know we are sad.. but she is stronger.. she held back her tears n comforted me.. im such a crybaby.. so i was there sitting beside her for an hour.. hesitating n really dont know what i should do.. for a moment she almost wanted to tear my letter (like some drama u see on tv).. then she pushed me to go over to the supervisor.. i couldnt even speak when i was at the table, my tears just came dropping down once again. the rest with the supervisor are not important anymore.. and so we left the office together n she msged me when we parted at the mrt station.. 'will cherish the 14 days left for me to see u in the office' it made me teared once again.. its just so hard for me to leave the office when i am SO CLOSE to her.. she plays a big part as to why i am still there till now.. imagine who on earth is so caring to buy you breakfast everyday knowing u will skip breakfast coz u sleep to the max? wakes you up everyday so that you are not late for work? takes care of you in n out of office n gives you constant msg of concern when you are sick or feeling troubled? who on earth will do all these? SHE DID! and im still a little girl in her eyes.. though she is only few years older.. i treasure this special relationship we have built n i am definitely gonna treasure the 14 days left too.. my last day of work will be on 24/3/2006.... which is her exam day 1 day before her exam.. IF YOU ARE READING THIS.. i just wanna thank you for just being who you are n thank you for coming into my life n making a big impact on me.. i know that you are gonna stay with me for long.. till we age.. i believe you are an angel God sent me to protect n care for me.. i love you.. Love sees with the heart and not with the mind. Therefore, winged cupid is painted blind. |
