| Saturday, January 31 |
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this nose block is irritating me!!!!!
i've been suffering for the whole of yesterday and today... HELP!! actually im quite a good girl.. u see.. i've been eating plain n soupy stuffs these few days knowing that i gonna be sick if i continue ill-treating myself with those heaty food... but just now after training.. i had wu xiang for dinner at the market.. -sinful- it really did taste nice.. but now.. i suffer more coz the sore throat is worse and im sneezing non-stop? arg.. this is not good... hmm.. is the fever coming up? im feeling hot... -sob- training was actually quite ok.. but for this lazy bum here.. i still will complain.. heh.. anyway luckily it rained abit? so that i dun have to do a whole round of campus but halve of it.. =) coz the gym session before that was tiring enough for us.. sweat quite abit but i think the dinner after that made me feel that my hard work before that had gone to waste.. duh.. coz of all the fried food and the fried beehoon.. really a wrong choice.. anyway really feeling a little hot.. have to go measure my temperature and get some good rest... adios... |
| Friday, January 30 |
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heart's beating fast
emotions flying high gladly i am remembered by my most beloved friend thanx pal for your thoughtfulness i am on cloud nine a fragrance that seemed so wrong filled the house blocking my nose from everything else silently hiding in one corner suffering in the house of smoke a distant friend came joking happily taken aback but his invitation was accepted never would i dream of this to happen talking like in a faraway dreamland now its the time of the day again a good night sleep will cure my illness? i doubt so, but im gonna fight fight with the bacterias for my happiness on this special occasion =) love jas |
| Thursday, January 29 |
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never seen a second guy who is halve as irritating as him.. im not trying to be bad here.. but when it really goes over board.. i cant help it but to be pissed. this is the 3rd day in a row that he has called me.. and without hesitating, i threw the phone under the cushion covering the ringing till it ends... it spoilt my day.. arg....
was out shopping for shoe with bud today.. it has been such a long time since i last went out with him.. but the feeling is still good.. =) ya.. he set eyes on this pair of limited edition army print nike shoes we saw on our 1st stop.. which is at leftfoot.. and i guess the rest of the shops that we went serves no purpose coz in his eyes, he can only see that army print shoe.. ya.. so we wondered from one shopping mall to another till we reached taka and had dinner at crystal jade.. you can never believed this.. we had 2 servings of xiao long bao and in the end they were free of charge.. reason being there were bugs in both the servings of xiao long bao.. -__-" then we went borders.. and there i read a pretty interesting book teaching girls how not to be dumped by guys.. its really funny when the author teaches you how you should not do this and not do that... i guess i really have to learn.. then maybe i will be able to find my mr right... -wink- shall continue later if i have the chance.. my stupid bro is behind me irritating me and asking me to stop typing every other minute.... what a nuisance... hahahaha.... to my bro--> i dun care even if u are reading from behind.. this is my bloggy.. i have my rights... muahaha... =P ciao... i shall be a good sis and let him use... keke.... |
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sometimes i wondered... will he remember?????? |
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its raining again today.. can anybody tell me why is it raining non stop recently? it spoilt my plan of going to watch my juniors play game.. netball training was cancelled coz of the rain.. but oh well.. the journey back alone was a nice one.. took a double decker 174.. and for those who doesnt know.. 174 used to be all single deck.. now with the new double decks.. means i most likely have place to sit.. and not stand all the way like before... =)
actually i wrote another poem during lecture.. was more of how i felt right at the moment when i received a sms.. kinda knew what was coming but hmmm... wasnt sure what was i doing as well.. anyway MBIO lecturer really sux.. she speaks like in a mono tone... cracking jokes that only she understands... wonder what's the use of going for lecture when she dun need us to take notes but just listen.. saying everything is in the notes.. might as well read ourselves rite... weird doctorate lecturer... anyway i fell asleep towards the end of the first hour.. maybe coz i dun have wyne's phone to keep me awake anymore.. heh.. we've been competing the whole morning just to break each other's snake record.. the phone almost went dead on him.. with just a bar of batt left.. heh.. sorry dude.. dun worry ur gf will be able to contact you.. anyway u should buy extra batt so that its safer? haha... and ya.. i wanna complain.. that kenny.. arrgg!! how can i do to make him know.. 'hello im not interested in you and please leave me alone!' its the 2nd night that he called me.. and i unknowingly missed it this time coz i was outside with my family.. lao yu sheng.. keke.. and of course lucky me... yesterday was bad.. i saw the phone ring and dare not pick up.. huiqin dearie.. please ask him to stop calling me or msg me.. i would rather stay at home then to go out with him you know!!!!! jiu ming ah!!! gonna read up for tmr's quiz now.. ciao.... |
| Tuesday, January 27 |
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rain please go away.. its spoiling all my mood! making me shiver every now and then.. like its winter over here..
got to run.. im still not sure whats gonna happen on sunday.. a special day yet no special someone.. how pathetic.. shall not think abt it... =( |
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im so lost
as you moved on im stucked at the original pt hoping for miracle a hope that seemed so faint i know not where i am nor where im heading. feelings so clear emotions rises i fear, im hurt, im outcasted tears dropped history repeats. but i will persist till the very last breathe i have even when a special someone comes along bringing me to a place without you yet you will still be there.. in a special place right in the middle of my heart. |
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typed and deleted dunno how many entries. this is the 3rd time im trying to type something i think. but i just cant get anything outta my little brain..
anyway, i've deleted yesterday's poem coz it was really lousy.. will keep it for my own reading sake only.. keke.. coz i feel its a little weird.. sorry abt that guys.. yup.. have to tell you..... samsung e700a is really a nice phone.. recommended!! |
| Sunday, January 25 |
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you wont believe this.. i slept till almost 3pm today.. haha.. its for making up for the lost of sleep the past few nights i guess.. then less than an hour after i woke up, von called me for gathering at gab's place.. haha recruit chua! u slimed down and looked better with that tan! =)
the gathering was more like a gambling session, a fun one though i lost money.. played black jack and this game called in between.. i dunno which i lost money but didnt lose much in the end.. probably just a few bucks.. i enjoyed more of the laughters we had while gambling than gambling itself.. then was dinner at his place before he sets off for the scary place, tekong. i could see from his mom's eyes that she was sad.. probably reluctant to see him go off to suffer.. its in all the mom i guess.. but the jovial guy wore smiles on his face.. happy to leave or hiding his sorrows.. im not sure and i dun wish to guess.. its just part and parcel of every guy's life and i think he is taking it quite alright.. good for you dude.. 5 days of holidays is over in a flash.. happy moments dun last long.. i will be back to that place that is filled with walking corpse in just a few hours time.. time really flies.................... 2 years le.... |
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i dunno what to add today.. just feel that something is missing but im not sure what is that.. feeling empty inside? feeling ... im not sure what im feeling either... you said things that makes quite abit of sense.. i hate being like that.. i mean i dun like to be treated like that as well.. but somehow sometimes i just cannot control myself.. anyway i was told.. some things can give in.. but some.. no pt giving in coz you will be taken for granted and it will do more harm than good to the other party.. alright.. so much of stuffs that you guys will not understand.. shall stop here.. and dun bother asking me.. coz i've only told 2 person in the whole world and if u are not these 2.. dun ask.. coz im not gonna breathe a word...
wat shall i do tmr???? the last day of my long hols.... hmmmm.......... time to sleep.. shall decide only when i wake up tmr.. |
| Saturday, January 24 |
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its weird how i can be so tolerant all these while.. seems like i've been in very good mood these few weeks? or have my temper disappeared? im not sure.. but definitely not the latter.. i think i've become more tolerant.. not so chilli padi.. more forgiving.. more tamed.. and of course more laid back.. on certain things only.. of course i do feel pissed.. but even those angry moments last not long.. its a good sign i guess =) but i'd been told i've been to nice.. aiy.. shall see how it goes then decide what to do abt it...
anyway was in a conversation till 5am yesterday.. talking abt so many stuffs that i wondered what in the world was i doing and what was i thinking.. though most parts of it may be how i felt abt things.. but its better not to be said out rite? not sure if i've made the right choice to tell you so much.. but the good thing is i kept some to myself.. as in those were really under the 'cannot say' category.. too sensitive to be touched on anyway.. yup.. just hope everything goes on well even after that chat that we had.. it really just feel different when chatting with you... and if its not for you i would not have known im actually good in so many things.. thanx for telling me.. =) sometimes i really feel its a taboo to let too many ppl know my bloggy.. now i cant write what i am feeling.. maybe i will leave that out and not think abt it? or wait a few days before i touch on that topic.. anyway a little hint.. im pissed... i know its abit contridicting to say im feeling rather happy yet pissed at the same time.. but that's really what im feeling. maybe a little more pissed than happy.. arg.. not sure what i am feeling also.. shall go accompany my lonely bed now... AND I HATE BEING ALONE AT HOME.. WHERE ARE YOU!!!!???? TO MY BRO, BEN: U SAID U WILL BE BACK.. WHERE ARE YOU? LIAR LIAR LIAR!! |
| Friday, January 23 |
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first day of new year was alright la.. the usual visiting and stuff.. except that this year.. jacquelin came with us.. yah.. was quite surprised.. i dunno what's between them so dont ask me but i really think they should be together again la.. haha.. as in seriously this time round i really feel that.. never ask him coz dunwan him to say im kpo.. =P
hmm.. was out with huiqin to watch movie... then dunno how.. we chatted on the gentleman topic and i was thinking of the guys around me.. there's really quite afew of them who are really gentleman.. and a minority few that really sux.. ok.. that's a lousy word to use.. anyway to our pt of view.. a gentleman will offer without being asked to.. i think just this line.. i can cross out quite afew of them off my list.. haha.. then again.. will guys only be gentleman to girls they like? -ponders- i think the true gentlemen will treat everybody the same.. but it is rare to find true gentleman nowadays.. anyway i can think of 2 now... -wink- ok.. enough of my craps.. buddy.. im sorry.. im not quite in the state to tell you how i feel and everything.. i'll do it the next time i come online k.. meanwhile.. dun keep looking at the closed door.. look in front at those open doors.. =) nitey... somehow i feel i miss someone....... |
| Wednesday, January 21 |
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met president just now.. he got me a guys nike singlet.. haha.. what a weird thing to get for a girl? but its ok coz i can wear it to beach when im feeling fat.. muahaha... yah... waiting for reunion dinner now.. everybody is present except for my elder brother.. haiz.. i guess he really have to think abt his actions nowadays.. he is going back to the old ben who treats this place as a hotel..
anyway will be going chinatown later.. wondering if its a right choice.. buddy was saying its dangerous coz ppl will 'eat meat' but hmm.. think i will still go to have a feel of the new year atmosphere.. yup.. gonna play game now to kill time.. |
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huiqin dearie.. i shouldnt have gone for that dinner with you and your friend that day.. darn.. im beginning to panick now.. really.. i mean my life is fine and i dun need someone to pester me day in day out.. arg.. wrong choice man.. haha.. now all i can do is to avoid..
anyway couldnt find a sling bag that i like today.. so only got myself a new pair of socks to go with the pink tick shoe.. keke.. oh oh.. im borrowing sling bag from wt.. haha yes its wt.. though he is a guy.. but hmm.. yah.. that sling bag he has goes well with my attire on the first day i guess.. aiya.. no time already so everything also anyhow anyhow.. hmmm... nothing much to add.. not really in a mood you see.. my mom bad mood and expects me to be up early to help her in the kitchen tmr.. poor me.. and just now she was there nagging and nagging abt everything i did..or i didnt do.. haiz.. but thinking back.. im partly at fault too.. so have to go sleep now in order not to get scolding tmr.. =( nitez.... love jas... |
| Tuesday, January 20 |
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just thought abt it.. people really come and go in our lives... mr chang will be leaving np to go further his studies.. though im not really close to him.. but he is really one lecturer that i will definitely attend his lectures.. partly coz of his jokes and video clips and most of all he is one hell of a joker that u wont fall asleep in his lesson... no matter how tired you are... its sad to know he is leaving.. i dunno why i felt that but when the movie clip was playing.. i felt tears filling up my eyes.. sad...
then again.. i was sorta in a state of shock when i saw him sitting there.. i mean.. i didnt except him to be in there you see.. i didnt know what to say therefore i didnt even say hi.. wat a failure rite.. haha.. anyway i just hope we still can be friends.. though i used to crush on him before? or maybe theres still a little liking coz he is always so conversable? but i think he is a little hostile recently.. haha... dunno what nonsense am i blabbering anyway.. yah maybe he never even liked me before so what am i talking abt rite.. keke.... you know.. i so feel like skipping lessons tmr! all my friends are like planning or confirm skipping that kind.. im the only one who insists on going... arg... crazy me.. haa.. i really think im a lil weird today.. probably is the lack of sleep.. anyway lynnie.. i seriously dunno what happened or what's actually going on.. but when u feel like telling someone abt it.. ya.. just give me a ring k... nitey jas... |
| Sunday, January 18 |
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Got my first trophy of the year today.. and guess what? WE ARE 1st.. muahaha.. F I R S T -Grinx-
well.. its once again a netball trophy.. haha.. thot we could have some cash prize.. but nope.. that's for the clubs division.. we tertiary levels only have trophy and plague... -_-" -sob- went limin's mother's shop for dinner and the queue was SO LONG and its ALWAYS there... but its REALLY nice... the chee cheong fun.. porridge.. and the yam cake or whatever you call that.. THATS REALLY REALLY REALLY NICE.. omg.. limin.. can i go visit sometime soon? maybe can ask your mom to shift to some aircon place.. haha.. too hot there.. anyway i bought the nike shoe! haha.. the pink tick one? ya.. bought it at bugis terminal one.. erm.. $119.. was reluctant to get it at first coz my budget is below 100 and i saw that at 79bucks before.. but anyway bihong offered to pay half and asked me not to hesitate anymore... yup so i bought it... haha... my friend is stressed now.. her relationships are like in a frenzy... muahaha... <-- dedicated to my sweetheart.. girl.. this is what you asked me to type.. muahaha... dun worry la.. things will turn out fine.. time will tell.... haha.. probably just a crush.. im crapping... ciaoz... nitey sweetheart... nitey jasmin.. keke.... |
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a short one today... beach was alrite just that there's no sun? grandpa's place was crowded and has lotsa nice nice stuffs to eat.. all those snacks made me so full that i skipped dinner.. haha.. jian fei!!!!
anyway have to get up darn early tmr for carnival.. shoot me please.. why am i staying so far... yup.. gonna sleep.. and dearie.. dont you worry abt me k.. im really fine.. but wait till you have time for me then i will tell you more abt it.. yup.. and glad to know that everything is going well for you too... =) nite piggyjas... |
| Saturday, January 17 |
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the craziest thing that happened this year.. haha.. two girls were acting like idiots running abt at the busstop.. why? you may ask.. well to avoid the flying cockroach.. lol.. we had so much 'fun' that she ran away from the busstop heading home and i ran abt while waiting for the bus to pull to a stop.. haha... two crazy girls!
anyway.. just realised that i havent been in contact with fm nowadays.. since after that day that incident, we never contact . neither did i take the effort or initiative to even give him a msg.. just wondering if this will mark the end of our friendship.. someone whom i really can talk nonsense with and complain all i can with.. oh well. probably he is busy accompanying his gf that he forgot that there are friends out there too.. nvm.. shall msg him some day soon... kinda not in the new year mood though i've been out shopping quite alot these few days.. somehow have a feeling that i wont be wearing the skirt that i bought.. have to send it for alteration first before i wear it out.. its too hmm.. i dunno what's the word.. anyway i will be wearing yellow instead of the originally decided red.. dun ask me why change suddenly.. i dunno what's the reason behind it but my mom wants that.. she say wear red so i bought red.. now she say cannot wear red.. have to wear yellow or grey.. wth.. haiz.. but i still have to listen coz she's my mom.. just realised that i've been doing so many things that are to her likings.. like changing the skirt that i bought coz she thinks its too short and too worn out.. then i went to buy a red top coz she says its good to wear red.. now she wants me not to wear red for cny coz supposely its not good? haiyo.. i dunno.. do this do that.. headache.. haha.. anyway i have to go sleep.. having JAP lesson tmr! haha.. nitey.. |
| Friday, January 16 |
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hmm... kinda weird that im still up at this hour when i usually knock out before 1am.. haha..
anyway was out with weida today.. its been a long time since we last went out together.. as in just the two of us. as usual, he cracked so many of his lame jokes and i enjoyed myself very much. just that i hate the walking part.. we walked so much today just to look for the pink nike shoe that i want.. but hmm.. he seems more eager to find that shoe than me.. hahaha.. hey dude.. walk slower next time k.. i cannot catch up.. lol! and if u guys wanna know.. nope.. i didnt find that pair of shoe.. i told him to forget abt it coz i am sick of running abt.. we settled for dinner at genki and went ps for a little shopping trip instead.. haha.. tired the samsung E700A phone.. looks REALLY cool, plus the external screen is 256 color.. u actually can see yourself on the screen when taking photo of yourself.. haha.. i tried that.. but hmm.. can forget abt it when u see the price of the phone.. not something that i will get.. plus im really broke nowadays.. so all the more dun need to think... yup.. someone is chasing me off to sleep.. haha.. do you know its been a long time since we have a good chat? but i doubt this will happen again until u are able to open up yourself.. lol.. not even sure if u still read my bloggy.. but anyway just take care k... and to kev.. sorry for last night.. i really have to do my report and study for the test that's why i left and never come back.. yup.. we'll chat again soon k.. u take lotsa care too.. i know its hard for some stuffs.. but i believe u can overcome them.. =) got to go.. nitey bloggy.. - = Sometimes its just not meant to be and you have to let go.. = - |
| Wednesday, January 14 |
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i have so much in mind before i logged in to this diary of mine, but now my mind is blank..
when u spent almost a day alone.. you will start to think abt alot of stuffs... yesterday mainly was waiting n waiting.. went queensway to find out that the nike pink tick shoe that i like was SOLD OUT.. hate it! and i made a wasted trip down.. then i was reading a book in mac and i was at this part where the main character, Ed, died and my tears just came flowing down.. then i was thinking.. what if someday someone close to me die.. will i be strong enough to fight the tears.. i've tasted the feelings of losing someone important.. probably im not old enough to determine if he is really important.. but i kinda know how it feels like.. and i know that the next one that comes along.. i will not do that again... hmm.. why am i talking abt all these? -_-" anyway i have to go soon.. didnt know that i have to do a report for the practical lesson.. plus there's a small quiz for ABC tmr.. argh... help! |
| Tuesday, January 13 |
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everything seems to lighten up for now.. at least when i mention abt that topic now.. i dun have that strong feeling of heartache anymore.. say im emotional.. im cry baby.. i dun care.. coz it is truly how i feel and i let it out..
i was talking to huiqin just now and i sorta knew she will ask abt that coz she read my blog.. yup.. told her abt it.. apparently i was quite immune to that topic now that i dun talk like i have things stuck behind my throat.. or have tears flowing down.. just a watery eyes here n there when i reached the sensitive parts.. but oh well.. probably coz i've said it 3 times these two days.. haha... then again.. when i reached home.. i have this warmhearted feeling inside me.. for i finally get to see my brother after being MIA for so many days.. i knew exactly where he went.. but i just dun like him to stay away from home for so many days? i dunno.. i feel better having him at home.. i like his presence.. i like our whole family sitting together and chat at the dining table or just sitting on the sofas watching some tv programmes together.. you ppl muz be surprised why i suddenly mention abt my family.. when i project this image that im nonchalant abt all these.. like those teenagers who would rather spend time with friends and be out till late at nite... i dunno.. i probably was.. not to those extreme types though.. but i know some things changed me.. it pulled me closer and of course.. i felt happier being with my loved ones.. though i bad mouthed them sometimes.. though unhappy stuffs or arguments arose.. i know they are the ones who will stay by me till the end of the day.. so ppl.. treasure all you have.. have been blogging alot lately.. von seek refuge in her heavenly father.. i seek refuge in my virtual diary.. ??? muahaha.. crapping.. going off to sleep.. i know its late.. but who cares when i only have a 2 hours class tmr.. =P |
| Monday, January 12 |
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ok.. i am still here.. that girl is being held up in sch and will only reach jp at 9pm.. keke.. dinner was great.. yu2 pian4 tang1.. hmm.. but somehow it didnt taste as nice as last time? like short of something but dunno what is missing.. shall not ask hq up for dinner later coz mom's standard today is really lousy.. muahaha.. she wont see this so its ok.. =P
anyway what i wanted to add is that i have more or less adjusted myself back to the schooling days where i will sleep early and wake up DARN early for lesson and stay awake in lectures but the only thing that has not been listening to me is my brain.. cant seem to focus for too long nowadays.. not sure of the reason why.. but i seem to be in a world of my own or chatting away with lynn or yixin.. hmm.. BAD GIRL... but dun worry coz i never forget my goal for this sem and my aim.. yup.. gonna sign off now to meet her.. |
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hello im back from sch.. didnt have a really long day coz i missed the 8am lesson.. haha.. really couldnt get up in the morning and i know im gonna get reprimanded for missing lesson when it is only the 2nd week of sch.. but.. no buts to think of.. haha..
OH! the Instrumentation practical lasted 4 LONG hours today.. oh man.. which means i only managed to leave sch at abt 6 in the evening! my friends were cursing and swearing when the teacher made us finished up everything before we can leave.. and two ladies beside me had already had programmes with their friends or partner at 5pm.. so it didnt get long before they both got so fed up that some not really nice words came out from their mouth.. haha.. its so funny when i looked at them being pissed off and so in a rush of time that they did things so hastily not giving a shit out of what they were writing anymore.. and suddenly wyne said some stupid joke that cleared the air and everyone laughed.. had so much fun running out of sch with him.. laughing all the way from the lab to the bus stop outside.. you muz be thinking why am i running when i never meet anyone.. haha.. i never but he did.. and i was made to run coz we are taking the same bus.. took a long bus ride back.. didnt take the usual 174 today but 154 instead.. was a long yet nice one coz i sat there thinking thinking and thinking.. about alot of stuffs.. yes.. and i sorted out some feelings and thots.. and had afew goals here and there.. pretty much the same as what i've always been thinking of.. just that i promised myself i will follow thru here.. and not give up halfway or whatsoever.. yup.. gonna bathe and get ready to meet huiqin later at jp.. god knows why we are meeting.. but its just so nice to spend some laughing times with her.. =) ciao! |
| Sunday, January 11 |
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just realised that so much so that i've told others to be strong to take things lightly or whatever shit.. i am the one who is not.. i was defeated right on the first hit when out of nowhere that topic was mentioned.. and the vulnerable side of me that i've tried to hide couldnt take it anymore..
i knew i have been escaping reality for a long time.. not mentioning a single thing to any soul in this world except myself.. not even to bihong.. this is the darkest secret i've ever kept from everybody and i've lived with it for almost 2 years now.. but on each day that the conditoin got worse.. i just keep the fear in me.. not until when von shared her story with me.. then i realised that's not the way to do it.. it will definitely be better if i let it out.. but somehow i feel its only to those who encountered this before that knows my feelings the best.. so even when i mentioned it to bihong just now abt that topic.. there wasnt the instant click that she knows what i mean.. she hasnt gone thru that and wont know what i am going thru and how i am feeling.. i dunno.. but i will be strong.. i will try to at the very least to take things on my stride.. to be the strong jas that everyone sees in me.. apparently it takes time for the inner me to feel this way as well.. i believe i will be strong to face it when the day comes.. i have to be prepared for the future.... =) all those that i've written above was sort of a summary+my feelings of the chat with von yesterday at changi village.. the breeze was great yet not too chilling.. the talk was mature yet simple(if u know what i mean) which led us to open up.. she is the strong and the mature one between us.. it makes me realise that you have to go thru all these to mature up on this aspect of life.. like in a relationship.. u fall.. u stand up.. u mature.. it applies to everything i guess.. the more you go thru.. the more you mature.. yup.. i dunno what i am saying anyway.. brain dying soon... but anyway.. went for dinner with gab+von+pui+wx+brenda afterwhich to changi village to chill at this pub.. it was sort of a farewell dinner for gab before he goes army? i not sure what its called.. but oh well.. a gathering for us and it will be a long while later before we see each other.. and yup guess what.. i got home at almost 4 in the morning.. facing the walls all by myself..AGAIN.. but luckily it wasnt long before i have to get up at 7 to get ready for the netball carnival at kallang.. hmm.. games went well.. but it started to rain on our 4th game and everything is postponed to next sunday.. damn rite.. have to go all the way to kallang again next sunday and report at 7am!!!!!!! which means i will have to get up at 5!!! bless me... yup... im really tired after a looooonnnng day... plus tmr will be a long day as well.. i think im gonna die of lack of sleep anytime soon.. erm.. is there such a thing? blah... ciao... |
| Saturday, January 10 |
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sometimes i wonder is it appropriate to let this much ppl know my blog.. coz i dun seem to type my inner most feelings to this bloggy anymore.. its has all been so superficial that i know not what i actually feel when i re-read them.. maybe i should start a new bloggy solely for my own use.. not for sharing.. i'll think abt it...
anyway im still deciding whether i should go beach with them.. or i should just slack at home and rest my soul... maybe i should just finish the book i have in hand.. haha... then go visit my grandpa in the evening.. haiz.. life is so torturing with so many decisions to make.. going off to read my book now.. im at the climax.... keke.. nitey... dearie.. hope to hear from you soon ya.. gimme a msg or something to let me know how's everything going k? like i've just told lynn just now.. im just a phone call away.. =) |
| Friday, January 9 |
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i dunno what to type.. but just feel like blogging..
suddenly i feel that i've distanced myself from the world.. or was i thinking too much? in a way it is good.. for the reason you all know why.. actually im outta that place long ago.. just that i didnt know what i was doing that day.. and let my emotions bring me wild.. anyway im sure im outta that place for good.. and to those who are concerned.. thanx.. lynn.. thanx for listening yesterday.. though it was a short one but i really feel i sorted out my feelings really clearly.. yup.. and i do hope that you are coping fine with your partner and your family.. it was just 2mths that i didnt see you but i see the maturity and the sense of responsibility that has grown in you.. girl.. i know its tough to make decisions.. but i believe you can and you will know what you want when u have to decide.. yup.. girly.. be strong!!! im just a phone call away.. =) |
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tired is the word to describe my week so far... i've not have enough sleep ever since sch started this monday.. anyway.. this will be a short one coz i am so so tired now and my eyes lids are so heavy that it will close anytime..
yah... really closing le.. will update soon ba... nitez.................... dearie.. take things lightly k... they will turn out fine... yup.. takecare... |
| Tuesday, January 6 |
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changed target of my preferred sneakers.. haha.. coz that pinkish purple or whatever colour that is dun seem nice afterall.. yes.. so i will be buying probably the adidas pimpled face one or the chicken brand or the other nike one.. haha... havent decide yet... aiya.. maybe wont buy at all also... will see how....
ITS NOT WORTH ITS NOT WORTH. WTH ARE YOU THINKING? I NEED MY SANITY BACK!!!!!! |
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wat a hectic first day!
bought most of my lect notes after an hour plus of queuing! patience.. muahaha... then.. had a stupid 3 hours practical... feel like killing that lecturer... dragged myself home after that and fell asleep immediately on my comfy bed.. tmr is IS day.. which means i will be learning jap! kinda excited.. haha.. mad already la... dearie.. dun worry k.. everything will be fine... take a step at a time k.. i know you can do it... =) |
| Monday, January 5 |
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ok.. im back after two days off... haha.. did quite alot these two days.. and was lazy to blog.. oh blogger is down... so u ppl cant read it anyway.. lol...
went beach on saturday.. yah.. nothing much to mention abt.. tanning as usual.. but this time round we had more ppl, almost 10 of us i think... then i left early for amk.. got christmas present from my uncle.. erm this bottle of issey miyake ladies perfume set... then my brother got the ck eternity set... anyway... maybe i should start using more perfume.. coz i have in total 3 bottles of perfume at home now.. got another bottle from xiaohei as xmas present too... plus the one bihong gave last xmas... ok.. now it seems that ppl like to get perfume as xmas gift.. haha... yah.. then today is lil bro's bday.. he requested for sushi so we went genki to celebrate... after that went esprite to shop shop.. got myself a polo tee!! its kids size.. but oh well.. i can fit in.. haha.. so can my mom! she bought two and i bought one.. then she bought me a sweater as well.. like.. all my sweaters are from esprite.. so coincidence! after that.. mom bought this 80 bucks game cartridge for lil bro for his gameboy.. i was like.. huh? 80bucks for a game? madness.. i can top up a few dollars to buy a jeans.. or use that money to get 2 or 3 tops lo.. anyway.. its his bday present.. and he chose to buy that.. crazy boy.. met up with bihong after that.. wanted to buy bag but hmm... somehow.. dont have anything in mind so didnt get any.. neither did she coz the one she likes didnt have black.. fussy girl... haha..then we went to get her niece a bday present.. from esprite again.. this time round.. i have the discount card.. so she paid 20% less.. muahaha.. walked n walked.. talked n talked.. then is home sweet home.. anyway.. i've 8am class tmr.. damn irritating.. i hate mondays morning 8am class.. who will want to get up so early on a blue monday? argh.... oh.. i've listed some new year's resolution.. hopefully i can achieve or fulfill it.. more like a new term resolution la... 1) attend and be punctual for all classes.. lectures.. tutorials.. practicals.. 2) get at least B and above for all the modules.. not aiming for AD coz its quite impossible.. so A is nice as well.. 3) shed some fats here and there and then tone up and remain this tan.. keke 4) improve on GK... or just read more books... 5) be focus 6) tame down.. hahahaha 7) change my temper.. too quick tempered at times... ok.. these are the few so far.. if i think of more.. i will add here... anyway i think i should be sleeping soon or i wont be able to get up tmr morning.. keke.. looking forward to go back to sch.. meaning i will spend less and have time occupied by lotsa other things.. and yes.. out you go.. shoo shoo.... haha.. that's not the main pt la.. i just like having stuffs to do rather than slack my time away.. yup... really missing my bed now.. ciao! |
| Friday, January 2 |
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haPPY neW YeaR..
too tired to typed what happened.. anyway.. i went to anqi's place again.. yah.. had made our own steamboat buffet kinda dinner.. not bad for amatuers like us.. yup.. school's gonna start n i still havent decide if i should get myself a new bag... its troublesome.. coz backpack will make me look kiddy.. sling bag.. aiyo.. i dunno.. maybe i should save all the trouble and use back the old one.. nitey... |
